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Here's what I know about me, personally, as a BPD sufferer. Some may be relevant to the disease, some may not. However, I hope this list will help pinpoint some of the causes of the disease, from a biological standpoint.
- I experience severe and frequent mood swings
- I am a self-injurer
- I am frequently suicidal
- I have attempted suicide on more than one occasion
- I have been described as manipulative
- I have been described as fishing for compliments
- I am awful with money
- I have difficulty trusting others
- I am overweight
- Sleep significantly affects my mood
- Eating can affect my mood
- I am near-sighted
- Music affects my mood
- I experience "personality shifts" (My patterns of behavior change based on who I am with.)
- My moods can change significantly based on who I am around
- I have anxiety issues
- I have social phobia issues
- I have abandonment issues
- I have trust issues
- I change my hair color frequently
- I make many decisions based on the moment
- I hate big changes in my life
- I am messy
- I have been described as lazy
- I have a rich and variety fantasy life
- My dreams are vivid and I prefer my dream life to my waking life
- Meditation has helped me some in the past
- Medication has not helped me very much in the past
- I need personal therapy on a weekly basis just to vent my feelings
- I dislike and distrust group therapy
- I prefer being cold to being hot
- I smoke
- I drink caffeine
- I drink alcohol occasionally, although I fear addiction and avoid it mostly. Plus, it screws with my sleep and I don't like that.
- Speaking of sleep, the amount of sleep I need varies greatly as does the quality of my sleep.
- I like to start things, but rarely finish them.
- I am a sugar addict
- I am a fidgeter
- I have severe menstrual cramps
- I am allergic to cats and pollen
- I think out loud sometimes
- I talk to myself
- When faced with a challenge that I find too insurmountable, I tend to shut down emotionally and physically.
- I have astigmatism
- I love to read
- I can't stand drama, although I fear I cause it
- I am always wondering what other people think about me
- I always assume people are thinking negative things about me
- I often assume fault automatically and have been accused of apologizing too much
- I crave security
By BPDCure at LiveJournal
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